life is blur

 

For eons now, my life has been a blur;

disgust and shame always walk hand in hand.

Emotions run wild; rampant they run... stir;

sin has always been to the horse a spur.

 

Sometimes so far away.

 

Sometimes life’s so gray.

 

Voices scream in the dark halls of the mind;

drugs sedate the lunatic on the wall.

For eons now, I’ve walked and lived life blind;

Someone please silence the screams in the hall!

 

Sometimes I dream...

 

Sometimes I scream!

 

So many different ways and fronts... ends;

Waves capsize, this ship sails in the valley.

Death that quickens no longer kills all friends;

Grim starts to take score... he takes his tally.

 

Sometimes wish I was not so blur...

 

Death is all I know; all I can incur.