WE'LL BE ALRIGHT

 

Been ashamed all through this life;

thought I knew all about this world,

I’ve been living life afraid – curled.

Can I... I still wish for a wife?

 

Place I called home was brief and pain;

thought I knew what love was all about,

knew from there nothing would come - sprout.

Smart I am, there is no one to blame.

 

Do not turn you back on me brother...

apart we are only meant to be divided.

Though our thoughts may always be one sided...

our love came from one saint... one mother.

 

Sometimes... I think we are enemies;

it’s because the world has gave us naught,

what we have, alone to each we have taught.

We have to make the bad... songs of melodies.

 

For my brother I write this writ...

know my little one, we’ll be alright,

for us the future shine’s loud – bright.

together may we stand... and never quit.

 

 



QUEEN OF MY HEART

 

 

Been bad from the beginning momma; I want you to know, I appreciate the sacrifice.
You remained a queen through the drama: today your love makes me maximize.

Even though dad was not a man for us... you took it with great stride.
He was a zero from the start - you were the plus.
Many nights I'm sure alone you cried... still, you took time to guide.

Oh momma... my momma you're the Queen of my Heart.
Though the day is nigh when you'll depart; know that because of you I am a man...smart.
You've been there for me, to comfort me... you will always be the Queen of my Heart.
Want you to know today that from your teachings I will never depart... oh Queen of mine -- my heart.

Momma... I'm sorry.
Oh God momma I'm so sorry.

Though there is no doubt you deserved a better son;
momma, for me you were the best... the better one.

No Theresa or Mary will ever match to you...
you are the holiest saint in my life -- my nun.
I'm so sorry momma... I'm sorry a hundred times ton.

There is no way I can leave this writ with a sad note;
so... take this poem with you as an oath - my quote.
Starting today I will live my life in full devote,
this I know because my soul you've taught... in stone wrote.

A father I know I can be thanks to your love.
Though there has been a need for revenge -- shove~!
Momma, because of sacrifice I will soar above.
In the here after -- of me, I know you will proud-of.
Queen of my Heart...
for you, from evil I will depart.

For eternity you will remain in my heart...
oh Queen of my Heart.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



life is blur

 

For eons now, my life has been a blur;

disgust and shame always walk hand in hand.

Emotions run wild; rampant they run... stir;

sin has always been to the horse a spur.

 

Sometimes so far away.

 

Sometimes life’s so gray.

 

Voices scream in the dark halls of the mind;

drugs sedate the lunatic on the wall.

For eons now, I’ve walked and lived life blind;

Someone please silence the screams in the hall!

 

Sometimes I dream...

 

Sometimes I scream!

 

So many different ways and fronts... ends;

Waves capsize, this ship sails in the valley.

Death that quickens no longer kills all friends;

Grim starts to take score... he takes his tally.

 

Sometimes wish I was not so blur...

 

Death is all I know; all I can incur.

 

 

 

 



WHAT I GOT!

 

After being innocent for so long,

you came and made me strong;

you were forever tied to me... the ride along. 

Little did I know was so fucken wrong!

 

Thought everything was making sense,

till I saw you jump the fence...

that’s when all got so tense;

how could I have been so dense.

 

Now I see I was not the only boy;

I was just a simple pleasure toy.

Evil was your angle – a destructive ploy;

you took me down like the walls of Troy.

 

Guess I deserve what I got.

 

Can’t cry for being brought to naught!

 

That is what I got!

 

My heart is still trapped in your thought.

 

Won’t deny how good you tasted...

that body so stripped and naked!

Not a single flavor I hated;

great was the savor of being related.

 

This is what I got!

 

Sarah, I never forgot.



THE WOMAN SOLDIER

 

As look at the Frontiers ahead of me; I realize they are prisons that won’t let me be.  No matter how much I fight, I know that I only have what I see... this WHITE WIZARD ensnares my soul, I cannot make a sobbing plea.

Disguising my appearance I have changed my names so many times; still THE DEVIL in charge sees through the attempted crimes.  There is no escape from this agonizing torture... once again I find myself trapped ... so sublime.

In the distance I see an old woman.  From afar she cries an unfamiliar name – my only expression is my everlasting shame.  From within the old woman I can feel that perpetual flame... this cry that can only be to me her claim.

I remember once there were three of us, but today I stand alone in this land of debauchery and lust.  Death here, is the only thing I know I can trust.  Many eons ago I had to compromise and adjust.  How can I return to this woman of old with a face of disgust?

In this land of waste and depravity I have found many friends.  The old woman yells my life with them will never make amends.  She warns that soon to her the darkness will bring an ends.  “Please” she says... “please let me die with my son saved... walking with Cleanse. 

Is this a dream or a haze?

My life is a scheme ... a daze!

Loudly I hear her scream... it’s a maze.

Tired I am of this world – this bullshit; call the WHITE WIZARD and condemn me to the pit.

She’s dying... only a whisper remains in her spirit.  Can’t she see I can’t break from him that is the Pivot?

Forgive me my old woman... for I have seen that you are the one, THE WOMAN SOLDIER; the only one that has carried me on her shoulder; forgive me... o great WOMAN SOLDIER.

 



PRELUDE TO A KISS

innocent victims dance around me without the knowledge of the end of an age; for them it seems I have prepared an eternal stage.  like the lights in a nightclub their lives rapidly flicker on and off; patiently I sip the drink of loneliness and with a smile I scoff. 

my strength seems to be running short, not to worry, for in the darkness my chants I will not thwart.  there is no turning back now... I cannot abort – clear will be my stance without distort.

my immortality is what they crave, I come to destroy.  for you see, in this intoxicating rave, the thirst of my fangs I will deploy. 

looking at my pale skinned face they think the candy man has arrived.  can’t they realize their very lives I will seize - from them their blood deprived!

there she is... in the distance I can smell her aroma.  her every move, her swinging body drives me into a coma.  walking toward the scent of this woman assures my fangs will inflict a stoma.

the thumping of the music pulls us closer together; suddenly my hands wrap around her voluptuous body, preparing me to become her tether.

her eyes stare into mine...

her fear is so divine!

every ounce of her is mine!

she cannot resist; I have become her shrine...

as I slide my lips closer to her neck, she gently whispers her plea.  the touch of my lips she feels bless her with a peck; from the sting of my fangs she will not flee.

and then... she succumbs to my PRELUDE TO A KISS.