Saturday, June 29, 2013

SLIP THIS SKIN


It’s been so long since I last saw my reflection; confusion has kept me far from what mom and dad said was perfection. 

My inner yearnings have led me down a path of defection; afraid I have lived my life scared of true detection.  Always I knew what was supposed to be the direction; yet, this train of thought put me in a state of complexion.  Judge me not my loved ones, for all I want is your acceptance and affection.
 
If I could I would slip this skin; just to see an honest grin.  Will I ever come to the end... or win?  Or will I always be seen as the boy that lives in sin?  Crying I lie in bed alone drinking my gin; thinking of what could be or what would have been.
 
Hope leads me to believe one day I’ll have a real connection; one that will meet all my wanting predilections -- one that will be seen without objection or inspection... yet, in me causing an infection that will see no need for correction.  No... no dissections, or ejections, or projections of senseless obligations.
 
Will you help me slip this skin?  Or will you just come on in, and allow me to not have to be the man of tin?  For a heart I have, though it may be weak and thin.  Don’t listen to those that say I belong in the loony-bin; come within and see for yourself what lies therein.  I promise I will not disappoint if only you can get passed the chagrin. 
 
I do not want to waste away in the corruption of my infection; please, come and save me from this intolerable inflection that stands as an insurrection.  This hatred that greets me at every intersection kills me to the point of no resurrection. 
 
If I could I would slip this skin, not because I want to, but because I’m tired of taking it on the chin.  Don’t see this writ as a boy weeping with his violin; instead see your mocking and silent bullying as the ORIGINAL SIN! 
I WOULD... I WANT TO SLIP THIS SKIN...
 
 

Saturday, June 22, 2013

DON'T CARE
 
I was sitting when in my sentenced chair,
came electricity that killed my prayer!
must admit, never gave an efen flare;
but this shock in my soul I could not bear!
 
Came from planet dare...
still you do not care!
 
Despite my flair which is so rare,
you walk the square so unaware!
In the shadows I lurk, there I swear;
to kill, purge and tear!
 
Still I don’t care...
always I will forever dare!
 
All those that cross my pass looking fair,
I’ll consume as they walk into my snare!
don’t care if they scream in my glare;
for I come not to spare but scare!
 
So, tonight watch your back, for I am there;
watching with my everlasting lustful stare!
Be not afraid, I’m your immoral affair!
 
Yes... I don’t care.
 
Yes... you I’ll wear.
 
Yes... I am despair.
 
And... I DON’T CARE!
 
 


Friday, June 14, 2013

EATING MY INSIDES
 
In this Universe made to last, I perish from lack of light; this vast galaxy warms worlds here and beyond, from me it spares no night. 
Alone and afraid I stand looking down at the abyss that rises to eat what is inside of me; it comes up like a volcano to destroy what I am and what I’ll never be.
I long to feel my heart burst open wide, till nothing of I remains; nothing excites me like death knocking at my door; is that insane?
Go ahead and judge jurors and priests; the day of reckoning comes, where I’ll stand at side-court!  Yes, my madness is like nothing you’ve ever seen; yes, it is because I love to-snort!  Wait... where am I... seems I’ve lost me place in the ranting of me mind; oh my dear, it looks like I am walking crazy and … again, blind! 
Though, this is no reason to stop where I was going, I won’t thwart; yet, I know there are those out there that want to extort!  Not to worry... I’ll just call on those sitting on the high-court; to them I will give no reason... no fucken report!
What am I doing?
Where am I going?
This makes no sense anymore; I just want to-gore, in that which I efen adore!  Within these walls I find myself in bore; none will understand my minds great-war.  There is nothing left to implore, though there is much left for me to explore!  Upon these lines you will hear my soul roar; just listen and you’ll be able to come ashore!  Don’t pay attention to the décor; for there is where all come to plead for more.  I am he that comes from before; he that all hate and abhor!  Most can’t help but to love... can’t ignore!
What the fuck... something is eating my insides!
In my world... nothing at all ever coincides.
 
 
 


Friday, June 7, 2013

TELL ME WHAT TO DO
 
At times I wish I lived like you;
who will carry me through the knew?
Will you ever know as I flew;
never, ever as I did or do!
 
Lost I live in my efen mind;
you try too hard to efen find!
No, I cannot live so aligned;
I can’t be part of your mankind!
 
Tell me what to do!
So I can be like you!
 
Will you have faith in me?
Do they have faith in thee?
Gone from me is my glee;
those who see quickly flee!
 
So... please tell me what to do?
 
Tell me... what won’t make you chew.
 
Seems like everything makes you jump!
Cause I’m quiet, makes me no chump!
You think I live in a big slump;
in my world, I am the efen Trump!
 
So fuck you!
You have no CLUE!
 
TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!