Sunday, August 21, 2011

FAMILIAR GROUND

Sit contemplating my surroundings; find myself lost – it’s confounding to live with one foot in the air, one foot on the ground.  All seems to be fair; suddenly I start to drown.  Though I am nervous I know this familiar sound; seems I must have drifted to familiar ground. 

Rough night has dawned upon me again; worms once more dine upon my decaying brain.  Downer always seems to eat me alive; wonder if tonight is another blessing I will survive? 

Monsters screaming in the night know my name; by now this routine to me should feel lame.  Yet, I persist to visit the valley of darkness; my reward is a week full hardship and sadness.  Find myself wondering where is my mind?  My dear reader I know I’m walking blind. 

It’s familiar ground...

Don’t want to be found.

Hands are tied to the bed post; nurses continually enter to assure they’re my host.  A lunatic screams in the hall!  Is there someone beyond the wall?  A lullaby vibrates my bed; must be the ranting in my head. 

Will I die in familiar ground?

Will I ever hate this sound?

With one foot on the air I sing; with one foot on the ground I cry.  Never will I be free from this thing; this is where I come to die.

Life feels so undefined.

Life in me is disinclined.

With one foot in the air I walk familiar ground; with one foot on the ground I inevitably drown.  Am left alone in both worlds; choice must be made where to live.  In the valley of death I can’t feel unfurled; guess I choose intoxication – for to me it will never misgive.

Walking I head again tonight toward familiar ground.

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