Cut my arms today; numbness goes away. Remembering everything eats –- it beats.
Sun is hot today; fever comes to slay. Remembering life’s seats’ –- it heats.
Will I kill myself? Sparing I will not oneself; in this river of shame we forget our self. Come visit, come and with me forget yourself –- all that’s thyself. Wicked are the nights here; screaming torture is all I hear. Worms squirming on the ground deafen my brain; as they dine my heart to shreds – I go insane. Take me death, take me toward your eclipse; in the covering of the sun decease equips. Silence overpowers there; there where I desire to be heir. Suffocating me is –- this air; walking amoung you I can’t bear.
Razors slowly slice the flesh –- my skin; bleeding pact comes to splice my inner twin. Raging madness shadows over him; swearing lewdness makes me grim. Depression severs at me; misery comes tearing limb from limb. Darkness follows day to day; agony has much to say –- to say!
Amidst my hell I have admitted; love to me was always omitted. When shall this curse be remitted; how long will hate have its way –- permitted!
Lonely rooms become a constant terror; life seems to be an endless error. Drugs no longer anesthetize; can someone help me actualize –- help euthanize. A world of pain is where I live; cannot find in me the will to relive -- as the taking hands continue to misgive.
Can’t focus anymore; bring to an end... I implore this charade of smiles or I’ll explode!
Alone I stand in a ward of painful dreams; abandoned I stand coming apart at the seams.
With watchful eyes into a mirror I stare uninterrupted; with watchful eyes I see life in me... in me interrupted.
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