STANDING NAKED

When standing naked before thee, why dost thou only see my sex?  Your outstanding crooked ways before me -- causes much perplex.  Baring my soul I stand undressed; alone in this world I consider myself pressed.  Devils in my eye haunt –- pursue; people at my side taunt – my actions turn askew!

Bereaved I am standing naked in your sight.

Perceived I am as a monster of the night.

Poison flows through the veins of my body; cannot escape the venom I embody.  Dying under a sunless sky I wither away; darkness comes to steal, kill –- toward decay –- toward decay I go without array.  Gray is the path set before me -- death’s way.  Without color stands a gift –- my bouquet; my bouquet sent from them whom deny for me a soiree.  A creature of the undead is I; do not fret my dear –- take your sigh.  For who or what I am there is no why; old at your side know I could never die.  Speaking I come without beguile; for I always tell the truth, even if I lie.  Yet, you listen not to me; persisting you insist I make my way to thee.  Dost thou part of the dead wish to be?  Or perhaps a corpse thou wish to be for me?

Run, run and no more come down my path; down this road many have felt my fury –- my wrath. 

Standing naked I offer my cries in solace.

Standing naked I die like William Wallace.

A last kiss cannot be so; hurry my love -- don’t look back as you go – for piercing fangs shall bring a great blow.  On the morrow thou shall thank this pale Vampyre; on the morrow in your dreams I shall be admired. 

Take with you the love I have shown; remember the dark embraces I have sown –- for from this day forward, thou shall no longer come before my throne.

Standing naked I no longer can.

Standing dressed is greater than...

STANDING DRESSED

Times of compassion have been swept by times clock; winding down none can hear a tick or tock –- at hand are the screams, the shock!  Standing dressed I come without delay; obscure will be all that I was on the eve of May.  My nakedness you mistook for sex; suffer now my darkness and its grueling effects!  Running will serve you no moderation; at my side comes damnation –- with no salvation.  Standing dressed is the monster at your side; monster in whom not any can confide. 

Standing dressed my wish I shall command.

Standing dressed my fangs you won’t withstand.

Come; come my child -- become a creature of the night.  Lusting, lusting is my hunger for your blood -– thirsting with great might.  Enslave thyself to me; let eternity blissfully kill and be. 

Cold tombs shall embrace thee as you rest; suckling I shall feed forever on thy breast.  Coursing through my veins is the blood I ingest; all will thou place before me –- your warmth and life I shall digest!

Standing naked I warned of the shadows which were to be; ignorant you stood taking no heed to my decree.  Now, suffer thou in my wretched grip; suffer as your soul I tear and strip.  Neck my tongue shall lick as blood I see –- drip!  The slash of thy skin shall bring vast glee; grand shall be the depth and pain of my degree.   

No more shall thou see the ocean’s blue; skies are gray in the land where the wind once blew.  Land of the undead is where I roam, the place you shall from this day forward call – home sweet home. 

A Vampyre amoung vampires am I; cold sinister creature in need of no breath or sigh.  Tried I did to deprive this pain from your heart; seems destiny set in stone for you to take part.  Love once shared is torn apart by the anguish that I must now impart.  

Time has run out for you mistress of the night.

Standing dressed I come as you shriek with fright!

ME INTERRUPTED

Cut my arms today; numbness goes away.  Remembering everything eats –- it beats. 

Sun is hot today; fever comes to slay.  Remembering life’s seats’ –- it heats.

Will I kill myself?  Sparing I will not oneself; in this river of shame we forget our self.  Come visit, come and with me forget yourself –- all that’s thyself.  Wicked are the nights here; screaming torture is all I hear.  Worms squirming on the ground deafen my brain; as they dine my heart to shreds – I go insane.  Take me death, take me toward your eclipse; in the covering of the sun decease equips.  Silence overpowers there; there where I desire to be heir.  Suffocating me is –- this air; walking amoung you I can’t bear.

Razors slowly slice the flesh –- my skin; bleeding pact comes to splice my inner twin.  Raging madness shadows over him; swearing lewdness makes me grim.  Depression severs at me; misery comes tearing limb from limb.  Darkness follows day to day; agony has much to say –- to say! 

Amidst my hell I have admitted; love to me was always omitted.  When shall this curse be remitted; how long will hate have its way –- permitted! 

Lonely rooms become a constant terror; life seems to be an endless error.  Drugs no longer anesthetize; can someone help me actualize –- help euthanize.  A world of pain is where I live; cannot find in me the will to relive -- as the taking hands continue to misgive.

Can’t focus anymore; bring to an end... I implore this charade of smiles or I’ll explode! 

Alone I stand in a ward of painful dreams; abandoned I stand coming apart at the seams.

With watchful eyes into a mirror I stare uninterrupted; with watchful eyes I see life in me... in me interrupted.

BOY INTERRUPTED

Wanted to see if I could feel; didn’t work – seems I must keep my own deal.  Worms eat at the brain; can’t say I want to live with this pain.  Don’t care for it anymore; forgive me if differently I swore.  Daily I drown in the abyss of my ocean; everything blurs – everything moves in slow motion.  Voices mock me in my head; peace I’ll have when I am dead. 

There is this fear of failing; soul yearns to trust someone instead of wailing.  What are we working so hard for; can’t you see not fitting in hurts to the core!  So tired of not being the same; this lazy, loser, ugly, untalented stupid feeling is getting lame. 

Tell me, what is the point for us all?

Tell me, will there be an end to the squall?

In me lives the potential for being great; some might even think this is a good trait.  At my side there are those that I love; to them I’ll always be a fragile dove.  The future taunts us with things it might have in store -- or something I might want to live for.  Knowing I can spare some sadness does bring some light; I know this will make it easier through their nights.

Boy interrupted am I.

Not corrupted says I.

Though my journey has come to an end, forgetting you is something I can’t pretend.  At times smiling was not a part of my soul; still, in dark times smiles you so easily stole.  This remembrance brings tears to my eyes; when I couldn’t breathe you were always there to help me sigh.  Hope I didn’t disappoint you; sorry if I’m the reason you’re feeling blue.  Know that today I walk a pasture of peace; life has graciously given me a new lease.  If you miss me tonight, look up to the heavens and the stars –- for that is where nightly I’ll be healing your scars.  Don’t shed another tear for me; time to continue on has come to thee.  Remember mom, you can’t go on – yet you can go on. 

Always -- I’ll be your boy interrupted.

Always -- you’ll be my mine... uninterrupted.

DRIVE YOU AWAY

Cannot deny a time when I was not nice; you see in me lives another vice.  Years upon years I played the dice; I promise you this – you I never intended to slice. 

Did I drive you away?

Did I cause you dismay?

Nights upon nights you waited on an empty bed; flights upon flights my drug was the one that led.  Left alone you hoped for a return; suppose hard it was the day you had to learn.  Was it easy for you to go?  Did you look back though?  Wonder if for you the healing came slow; silently, for me the anguish will still grow.

Given the chance I would not let you down – again.  Turnin’ back time I would not allow you to feel – such pain.  Speaking with truth in hand – I can remember the first day we met.  Leaping into a strange land – wheels in motion were set.  Ninety-five was the year of our kiss; heavens birthed new stars amidst my induced bliss.  Why was I such a fool?  Without you I drowned in a shit-filled pool!

Why did I drive you away!

Why did I cause such dismay!

Now you lay with another at your side; I would lie if I didn’t say this hurts my pride.  Only God knows how much I wanted you as my bride; loving each other we could have lived without divide.  Such ease I felt in you to confide; a fortress of security where I could safely abide.  So sorry our love met its doom – died; fantasy would be to see it bloom – denied.

Forgive me... didn’t mean to drive you away.

Forgive me... never meant to cause you dismay.

HATE TO LOVE

Centuries have passed since I last laid my eyes on your brown entrancing eyes; without you many have been the days of pain and sighs.  Alone this Vampyre cries for a glimpse of your beauty; if seeing you once again meant my death I will make it my duty.  Since then these cold hands have suffered the chill of the night; without your face my days are worse - cursed from the light.  Loving you is the sting at my side; desiring you is the thorn at my side!

You... I Hate To Love – for you’ve made me a monster of fright.

You... I Hate To Love – for your sweetness makes my face blight.

My love, I miss the taste of your brown skin; oh how I wished to become part of your kin.  No longer can I forget who in you I’ve been -- will my rest of this torture ever come – begin?  Still remember the touch of your warm lip; oh, how easily you were able to make me undress – strip.  Your jet black hair still reminds me of the darkness you encompass; as we made love my ears could hear the sound of the brass.  Tingling still, my flesh creeps as I think upon you my dear; undead and living loving together caused others to feel queer.

Today left alone I Hate To Love... you.

Icy crypts are now my homes without... you.

Only sorrows remain as I look at this picture; your face smiles back at me without movement.  Anguish is the norm for this desolate creature; passed have been the eons with no show of improvement.

Tell me, why did you forsake me?

Tell me, why did you allow this to be?

Nowadays I understand my love was not enough; a wanderer is you of those that are lost.  Tonight I’m a rotting slough; petrifying do I live my days in your frost!

Hate To Love... leaves me now.

Love To Hate – rises in me... now!

LOVE TO HATE

The wind blows heavy upon the trees; a symphony intones my coming to charge late fees.  For you see, your abandoned love to me has reached its due reward.  Death shall meet you tonight at the end of my hatred sword.  Long forgotten to you has been my discarded love.  Yet, do not fret my dear – for you shall be my sacrificed dove!

Love To Hate has surfaced in my soul.

Love To Hate has become my bed – my hole.

You my witch, will not live pass this night, for I will tear you to shreds with all my might.  Forgiving you will never come near sight; ends of the world would I inevitably fight.  My time to cry for you has come to an end; evil, malice and revenge is what to you I now send!  With all its fury hell shall come with me; misery and agony shall come strong for you to see!  Felt in your soul shall be all the eons you made me bleed.  My hands shall wrought in you eternals’ seed; toward painful fires shall I’ll be the one to lead.

Love To Hate you is what I shall do.

Love To Hate you is your rightful due!

All your pleas shall have no voice here; deafened ears shall never listen or adhere!  Punished shall you rot in cells covered with my tears!  Banished from love shall you live in cells full of fears!  For many were the twilights when I stood alone waiting for my dear!

Hearken to the thunder in my voice; dusk shall not save you from my everlasting choice!  A gown of thorns is prepared for you to wear; sure am I this your skin shall hate to bear!  As I was left in the cold – naked and bare, so shall you now feel my whips across your back – rare!  For centuries my face shall be the one to scare; fangs I will not hold back – this I swear.

Love To Hate comes upon you now.

Love To Hate will consume you – I vow!

EVOLVING

What’s closing in?  There’s too much sin!  Child inside cries; daily a boy dies!  The world ties; rotting flesh is eaten by flies! 

Feel a monster growing inside; each day I become his bride.  How long will this evil abide?  My soul is clenched and tied!  Here I stand evolving – is there anyone outside the wall absolving?  My days turn into years; in a cell I putrefy without peers.  My innocence is choked by fears; all that is left is a boy with tears.  All my dreams and hopes disappear; nothing is left for me to engineer.  Seems I am my own pioneer; for many I am a mere souvenir – a simple boy exposed as a forced volunteer.

Worms eat away as I sit evolving.

Terms unfinished feel as if I’m revolving...

Evolve little boy into the monster you ought to be; revolve in circles knowing what you ought to do.  Your virtue is tainted by a man called - he; he’ll never pay to you his rightful due!  Lions come grabbing at me; positioned I’ll be the one they’ll screw.  Their faces show their awful glee; death came riding with the wind – hard it blew.

People like to watch; they laugh as they sip their scotch.  A young boy weeps; they that stare and drink give him the creeps!  If only God were around to save; they that drank his innocence took – and evil gave!  Now all that lives in me is malice evolving – malice continually revolving...

Don’t be scared of what I say, for I swear I can keep the wickedness at bay.  Disregard those who have things to say; trust me they will be the first I’ll slay – for they belong to the band called “they” - they who came with such wicked array; they who’ll never see the light of DAY!!!

Oh yes I sit here evolving...

Oh yer I sit here revolving!

When I’m done my dears... there’ll be no one left absolving!!!

REVOLVING

This silence continues to grow from within; inside of me lives a boy – my twin.  His eyes are lighter than my own; he’s a victim of the time that’s blown.  In circles he is made to suffer for my sin; incarcerated he never knows what it’s like to win.  A monster keeps the boy at bay; smiles forsaken come to charge with ill pay.  Boy hopes upon a star; many nights he cries au-revoir.

Round and round I go... revolving.

Down and down I go... absolving.

Boy descends into the depths of hell – I extend my hand.  Men grab and take from me without remand.  Can’t they see the boy has little left to give; can’t they see it is I who himself he can’t forgive?  Still, grabbing hands come and indulge upon the feast; the boy continues to be fed to their lustful beast.  Why do I take and take from the boy - my twin?  Why do I kill and kill the boy who lives within?  Have my good deeds all died?  Am I the beast that lied?  Who’s the monster that eats at me – Me?  Can this hellish nightmare truly be – Be?

Tired and sick the boy waits inside his cell; there is no salvation for him – this he knows well.  Death comes ringing its evil bell; again his flesh is the item to sell.  Darkness is where he’s made to dwell – where pain and anguish will exceedingly excel.  Fighting with his might the boy cannot expel; lasting long will be the hurt – until his farewell.

Sobs reach my soul as the boy daily dies.

Mobs eat away at the boy as he daily cries...

A mirror reflects a gentle face; cheeks marked with dark tears show an awful pace.  Desire grows in me to stare; fear grips my throat, yet I dare.  Watching me is the boy looking in; reflections in his eyes reveal my sin.  Saving him is what he wants me to do; my twin – only beckons me to pay him his due!

Chains fasten themselves around my wrists; struggling my hands ball into fists – enslaved the boy must continue to exists.  No matter how much he persists... I REMAIN TRAPPED... revolving.

LOVERS LOST

My love is born from the sound of your heart; you touch my feelings with such precision and art.  Together we are the chime in the wind; our embrace is one that heals – one that sinned.  Kissing we forget about the rules and the norms... melting we become a priceless jewel – taking all forms.  We cast our souls to the ecstasy that will consume.  We hast our souls to our arousals and lust.  Night after night we become the oceans’ perfume.  Night after night we hide and become lovers lost.

Naked we groan with hunger and pleasure...

Together we become younger without measure!

My ship sails upon stormy seas for you; upon thou naked beach my docking ship shall make its due.  Under darkened skies my lips shall taste your salty shores; amidst black invading clouds shall your breast fulfill for scores.  You I want to touch till time comes to an end; you I want to fuck till the times say it is the end – for it is upon you that my body wishes to attend.  Only thou my love are the one that I will forever defend.  My life and existence will always on you depend; those whom upon us wish extinction will my heart suspend.  No matter their quarrel my dear – know that I will always for you contend!

Our bodies yearn as we become lovers lost...

Our bodies burn together as lovers that lust!

You awaken me from the crypt that is my life; I waken with desire in a time full of strife.  Do not cry my loving dove at the mobs that draw nigh.  Know that your enduring love will sustain me as they come to tie – tie and beat me till I die.  Though they whip with fury against my bleeding back, know that my cries in the afterlife for thee will never lack.  Perpetually we shall be the chime in the wind; a song rising above the skies never again seen as sinned.  Hold fast my dear as they come for you; be strong my love and know that we are amoung the few – we possess a LOVE they cannot slew!

Lamenting a voice cries for the one whose blood crashes with the waves upon the shore – the one whom the mobs tied down and tore.