WITHOUT YOU

 

A lifetime I have had to spend without you;
though you think not, this has left me in total goo.
Many are the nights I fall ill, prostrated in spew;
you are the reason I stand dead... stand slew.

Without you I have had to manage on my own;

my feelings and thoughts are all owned to loan.

In debt you have left me to roam, in hurt and moan;

still, you stand prideful in your deceitful golden thrown.

 

It’s okay, I have survived without you;

even though I feel alone, cold and blue.

 

A stone you wrapped around my neck;

as a ship I was destined to be a wreck.

Drowning you saw me – didn’t care a speck;

one day on you, life will pass this check.

 Without you...

Without a clew.

 Laugh now while you efen can -- bastard;
for you think time you've mastered.
but trust me dad, one day you'll end up plastered!

 

The day will come when you’ll scream “WITHOUT YOU”

too late it will be – for by then I've already flew.

 

 

 



sometimes i wish

 

Sometimes I wish you could understand,

it was not right that I was banned,

or like a animal forced to be brand;

crying he has made me leave my land.

 

When in you there was nothing left to trust;

remember that mom was always the one he’d thrust.

I won’t deny that at times I did combust,

but believe it was not meant to break your trust.

 

I swear SOMETIMES I WISH...

that times didn’t squeeze and squish!

 

There shouldn’t be a reason for all this pain;

my God, at times I feel like I will go insane!

He is the reason I could not abstain;

he always meant to take -- the one to drain!

 

SOMETIMES I WISH...

broken wasn’t this dish.

 

Trust me though, I love you so.

All my life I slaved to sew...

to see in you the will to grow.

 

Sometimes I wish... I was there with you;

and for this I feel sad and blue.

 

Sometimes I wish you could see me now

so that the joy in me may lift your brow.

If this you do not understand... this I vow;

to you my kids... I will always bow.

 

Sometimes I wish...

 Sometimes I wish...

 



MISS AGONY

 

Please call my dear Miss Agony;

for the night seems foggy from my balcony.

Around me there is fear and dark;

as I am caught up in my days of lark.

 

Today, worse I feel from being alone;

the pain makes me scream and groan.

Last night I felt so cold -- ashamed;

looking back, I see I am the blamed.

 

Tell me, is Miss Agony standing here?

for suddenly I feel scared to disappear.

Tell me, has Miss Agony finally arrived;

for strong is the sense of my deprived.

 

Left I am abandoned... feeling soggy.

 

Left I am alone – so efen foggy.

 

Seems to me dear Miss Agony has left;

for at peace I stand looking down this cleft.

Once I screamed “with you I will go”;

seems those days were never meant to be so.

 

Oh Miss Agony how I hate your fate;

for in you I have learned... love to hate.