A CAGED SOUL

Am living in an age which loves to call darkness bright; I tire amoung the crowds who exorcize my life from the light.  Walking in this terror filled with horror and fright leaves me screaming in the night without any sight.  My soul lives in constant fear and self-doubt; this agony within keeps me stranded in a cage of drought.

This fear keeps me moving through an unwavering hell; my strength fails as I try to run and yell.  No one stands in the midst for us who dare to tell; here shall we remain in this God forsaken cell.

Chemicals rush up my veins; oh yea, now I feel the ax cutting at the grains – rushing warmth allows me to see my subsiding pains.  This drug keeps taking from me; how it drains; fuckers stand at the brink judging from their freshly painted plains.  Those standing next to me keep talking – never learning how to refrain! Those evaluating stand next to me, wondering if I’ll ever be able to regain. 

My body weakens in an age whose name I do not know; they speak cruel hurting words - cold like the icing snow.  They rather kill with their expressions instead of sew; abandon without growth instead of helping one grow. 

Running we’re left... we who are a caged soul.

Crying we’re left... we who have no self-control.

Set me free from your inflicting eyes and thoughts, for your hate and envy shall surely lead you to naught.  Yay, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I know it is I you always came and sought.  You can’t hide behind your judgments and think that you fought; fuck you – nothing till this day do you have as proof you wrought!!!  Laughing I know that you shall die and stink up the ground as you rot.  Me... I sang my tune for all to hear as I taught; me... I gave with my voice to all those I called and begot.

A caged soul was I... yay A CAGED SOUL.

This is my dedication to AMY WINEHOUSE; the baddest bitch

that ever lived.  Amy you are a Queen in my heart and soul; you

will be greatly missed.

-by-

Nathan Immanuel

PAY THE PIPER

Time has lapsed between you and I; your end has come, today shall thy stand before my all seeing eye.  Contract has expired; tonight shall I come for what is required. 

Your treaty stands null and void; all my fury upon thee shall now be employed.  Destruction and death thou shall not avoid; in thy screams of pain I shall be overjoyed!

In thy taking from me thou knew what was to be.  Thy debt to me was one I easily did foresee; the chastisement upon your back shall I personally oversee.  Cry, go cry to the gods of the north, for in all thy doing shall no mercy come forth.  Did thou not hear that to me no contract should be signed or decreed?  Did not thou hear that my soul is filled with hatred and greed?  Drowning shall your ears be to the sound of my whip of beads; a whip silenced only by the shriek of those that bleed.  The Pied Piper cometh lacking love and mercy in every degree – he cometh as the Master of your soul and your Payee.

Hiding shall avail thee no good; remember that from the beginning of time none ever could.  Preparing thine house is the only thing thou should; being in thy sandals, this is what I surely would.  Kiss thy brethren goodbye -- go, go embrace thy daughter goodbye; when I arrive allow them not at your side to stand by.  Horror shall be thine anguish and pain in their sight; spare them, spare their eyes of such terror and fright.  Tonight cometh the Pied Piper and his blow shall be mightier than a venomous Viper. 

Take heed to my warning; forsake not my words – for thou shall not live to see this morning.

Take heed to my warning; forsake not my words – for from this night on thou shall live in mourning.

Great and mighty are my steps upon the earth; magnificence and splendor I have been since birth.  Shadows follow chained at my feet to and fro – many belonging to those I have taken down below.  My name is the PIED PIPER and time has come to PAY THE PIPER!

FALL IN LOVE AGAIN

For so long love has been absent from my life; for so long all hope in me has disappeared for a wife.  Nights come without having a shoulder to cry on; everything I am inside seems to come undone. 

Oceans of pain stir inside my heart; my love why dost thou stay away –- so apart?  Growing old brings a chill to my bone; tonight feels like a bad winter storm has blown. 

Will the sun come up on a warm morning? 

Will love ever come and quench my mourning? 

Maybe the walls in my head will tumble; with love’s embrace this barricade will crumble.  How I desire to fall in love again; dear God – how I wish to not feel all-pain. 

Crowds constantly surround me in the streets; smiling they offer their facades and fake greets.  This agony that abides blinds me day by day; this anguish inside brings with it the hand of slay. 

Every moment without you love - is a moment that I am slaughtered like a dove.  My body grows weary of them that shove; seems everyone is only seeking to get higher above. 

When will I fall in love again?

When will I no longer feel insane?

All this time away is killing me within; all this loneliness must stop residing herein.  Will someone tell me can love consist therein – or is love a myth – something fallen to the has-been?

...I want to live only to hold you once more

...I want to live like those that by you swore.

Let me have love -- attain.

Let me fall in love -- again...

SAILING BACK TO YOU

Rushing waves send me sailing back to you; quickening waters cannot stop me from looking toward your view.  If I was to die in these waters without you, know that I would surely feel sore and blue.  For eons upon eons I have searched for thee my dear; for years upon years I have cried blood silk tears – yet, knowing you wait allows me to navigate without fear.

Sailing back to you is how I spend my days; ailing without you is how I live at night.  Thought my eyes had lost its sight; yet I find myself swimming these waters without fright.  Sharks circle my body as it sails back to you... God, I hope there’s someone praying for me at your pew.  There’s no doubt I will forever fight –- for you I’ll always strive to make the flight!  None can hold me back from getting there, even if for me awaits an evil snare.  No matter how much tribulation life brings; no matter how bad life throws bad things... know that I will always be guarding at your wings!

Want you to know that I’m always thinking of you; in my life the winds of time have come and blew.  Nothing is left today for me to show, but a passion which desires to love and grow.  Hope you can look upon this single act of love, as a sign that you’re my everlasting dove. 

Wish things could be different between you and I; wish one day you can look upon me with a singular eye.  Walking this path alone breaks me through and through –- if you were here my pains to you would easily subdue.   

Sailing back to you...

Sailing back to you will be my only life, until I see you at my side as my beloved wife.

LESS COLOR WITHOUT YOU

Less color without you is the curse I live with; darkened rainbows are not fairy tales or myths.  A world missing you means damnation to hell; just to have you I would all my being sell.  Loving you warms my arctic heart; museums post walls filled with black art... for less color without you is my blight.  Dying I would gladly place myself in a fight... for you.  Do not care if for thee I had to slew.

Less color without you... is the world I live in.

Less color without you... is my world –- my inn.

Planetary stars circle the universe showing a glimmer of hope in the night; interplanetary travel would I take for a mere glimmer of your sight.  Oceans envy the blue of your eyes as they shine amoung the mortal; motions are felt in the deepened hearts of the immortal –- for you quicken even the deadest dead.  Your smile possesses a peace that brings tranquility to those that bled and their tears shed.  Plenty of people pass you by, never knowing the array of beauty contained within.  Many orphans stop their cry, never knowing it was your peace which in them resided therein.  At your side it is easy to feel loved; impossible would one at your side feel unloved. 

Less color without you... is no longer the way I wish to be.

Less color without you... is no longer how my eyes wish to see.

My soul hungers and aches for a touch from your lips; cascading to the moon I will be if from your cup I am allowed to take sips. Deprive not from my side your everlasting existence; cannot you see pain is mine if you are far in the distance?  Come; quench this ache which kills in me every possible resistance –- know that until that day I shall forever continue my persistence.  My cherished; know that none can see you like I do, for to me you are treasured above the morning dew –- which feeds the grass upon the earth before it’s hew.

Less color without you...

Less color without you is not how I wish to exist.